From the moment you find out that you are pregnant, you have so many dreams for this little unknown person.
Who will they be? What will they do? Will they be happy?
The bond you make begins straight away.
You do your best to eat the right foods to grow that person and read all the books to prepare you for parenthood. You welcome your child into the world and immediately the instinct to protect your precious bundle kicks in. When they cry, you comfort them. When they fall, you pick them back up. You tell yourself that no one will ever hurt them.
As you are so young at the moment, it is easy for me to protect you.
You are still in my arms where it is safe. I don't have to share you with the world.
Yes, there is school to go to and outside influences but when you are upset, it's me you turn to hold you tightly.
When you're playing and the doors to your rocket fly off, yet again, it's me you ask to fix it.
I am enjoying all the cuddles and all the playing. Life is happy.
The worst thing to happen to you right now is when I don't let you have 10 more minutes of TV at bedtime. Or another biscuit, even though you grabbed half the packet before I rescued them from your dirty little hands.
You have changed my life so much for the better. Yes, even when you're screaming because I wont let you have more sweets because you're already bouncing off the walls!!
I take in every moment of being your mum, the good and the not so good, because they all matter. Just like they do in life.
One day you will want to move away from the safety of my arms.
It's what we all do when we grow up. From the smallest insect to the biggest of animals, the parents grow their offspring, teach them all they can to prepare them for a world beyond the bubble of being young.
That is what I want for you too. To grow as a person and to go out into the world. To be who you want to be and try to do what would make you happy. Whether that be a particular career path, travelling the world or even finding love.
Whatever your dreams are, follow them.
Yes, there will be set backs. You will be knocked down and feel like the whole world is against you. In those times you pick yourself up and keep going.
There aren't many other options.
I have had moments of heartbreak myself, I don't dwell on them nor would I change them. They have made me into who I am now. They are a part of me. They are a part of life.
They make the happy times all the more great.
My dream for you is that you have happiness, wherever you can find it.
Even in those dark times, it is always there. It may not be obvious at first and you may not see it until the darkness lifts, but it's there.
The happiest moment in my life has came from my saddest.
Right now I'm going to carry on enjoying all these precious little moments with you both. I want you to know that wherever you go and what ever you do, I will always be behind you.
I'm always on your side.
I love you
xx
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